It happens so every often, to everyone. Some people call it crossroads.
Where a critical point is reached and a decision is placed upon you.
Minor or major, these points can't be avoided.
Sooner or later, you have to ask the questions you didn't answer yesterday.
I thought on the bus:
"What do I want?"
"What do I want to see happen?"
"... I just want to see."
What that means to me, is mine and mine alone, save for everyone.
So what does that meaning mean to me and the rest of the world?
That is something I have to unfold as time flows.
I need to be truthful to myself, no more bullshit Chris. Don't run away, run to embrace.
As you make your choices Chris, you won't be able to keep you safe little world intact.
You have to shed your old ways, they can't contain you anymore, only suffocate.
The universe is in a constant "state" of flux. Bonds break and reform in different configurations. Relationships are now pushing what a relation is defined as. Relationships are becoming more and more of creation. Many stories before me have been written, are still being written, will continue to be written. It's time I pick up the pen myself.. Though I've always liked marker better, colored markers.
So as you can tell from the dialogue between myself, I'm in the middle of some sort of shift. This week, if I don't give in and sleep in, should be a very interesting week for me.
In terms of the blog, I thought I would use this entry as a journal or something. And I am working on a painting which I will post when its done.
Wait, one more thing before you go Chris. Remember transformation, like happiness, is only real and complete when shared (Thank you "Into the Wild"). It goes full circle and everything is connected.
Strive for freedom and happiness but know its already here - right now.
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